such. wild. love.

Every morning I come down to my car and find a #secretmessage left on the ground, and on the car's roof. Jacaranda, rose and nectarine blossoms are collaborating in an attempt to tell me something. That life is perfect just as it is? That beauty is all ar
I have felt such wild love since my forgiving.

For L, who is hurting so badly, having had her world turned upside down yet again, and whose acting out is completely understandable.

For J, who is confused and guilty but who never acted from cruelty.

View from my bed
For Topanga Canyon, and my treehouse, my new home. I really love it here.

my children.
For my kids, who I long ago abandoned in their time of need, an act I can never make up for. It’s so obvious to me now, going through a second divorce. But at the time (1995) I was more concerned with my own well-being than theirs. I’m older and wiser now.

For my friends and loved ones (you know who you are) who reach out to me, and support me with your calls and visits and texts and instagram comments.

For myself, wrinkles and sagging bits and faults and all. Love feels way better than hurt/hate/fear. Way, way better. I recommend it.

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  1. Penny

     /  May 3, 2012

    Well done keep being positive. I feel for L too. Give her my love.

  2. I’m new to your blog. But I feel your words – striked a chord deep in my soul. Sending love and positive energy to you and your loved ones.

  3. mookie

     /  May 3, 2012

    you inspire

  4. Forgive yourself too Hashi!

    Beautiful post.

  5. Rosie

     /  May 4, 2012

    Beautiful post! I concur with Elizabeth’s post. Once you forgive yourself all else will fall into place. There is an old cd of music called “Lightdance” by Nightingale which is very soothing to the psyche – not sure if that is something that you would consider listening to. It’s all instrumental.

  6. Rhea

     /  May 15, 2012

    You’ve got nothing to make up for.

  7. nutsfortreasure

     /  May 22, 2012

    LOVE your honesty and your post

  8. Tui

     /  June 3, 2012

    We grow…. We love.


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